wow. i totally failed NaBloPoMo.

but then again, i do have a newborn.  i think it’s a pretty good excuse.

as for the newborn.  he’s doing wonderful.  he’s getting big and steals my heart daily.

but i am soooooooo done having babies.  i hate pregnancy.  it sucks ass.  other things i think suck ass: having the baby (and by that i mean delivering the baby) and breastfeeding the baby.  i know i’ll get shit, especially for that last part, but really.  i hate doing it.  i hate feeling like a cow.  so i quit.  my baby is a formula baby!  not just that, but a GENERIC formula baby!  that’s right, i’m feeding him the cheap stuff because honestly, it’s all pretty much the same anyway.  sure, individual babies react differently to the small variations among the different formulas.  but in the end, all are regulated by the FDA to meet certain nutritional requirements.  i refuse to believe that my baby will be any worse for wear by being bottle fed.  in fact, i think he will be better off because i’m better rested and less resentful.  happy mama = happy baby.

now, i understand that some people out there are nipple nazis and think that i you don’t breastfeed your child you might as well be slipping arsenic in the bottle.   and to them i say “FUCK. YOU.”  (and since this is my blog and i can choose what comments to post, if you comment here going on and on about how bad i am and how i should be breastfeeding, well, i’m not gonna approve it.  so there.  nah.)

i also am fully aware that breastfeeding your child is good.  i am also jealous of the women who can do it with smiles on their faces.  i am not one of those women.  i like to sleep.  i want to be able to hand off the baby to his father to feed him.  i treasure the fact that formula takes longer to digest so i get a few more hours of sleep at night before getting up to feed him.  life is much better for us this way.

but you…  if you can breastfeed and you like/love it…  good on you!  i’m proud of you!

as a last thought, here is a REALLY good article about, well, the case against breastfeeding.  it has some really good points and despite the title, it is not suggesting no woman breastfeeds her kid.  it has a lot of history behind the breastfeeding movement of the last 30, 40, 50 years.  (maybe longer)  and no, it was not “sponsored” by a pharmaceutical company who is trying to discourage breastfeeding or to push formula.  it’s just a thoughtful, well laid out article that utilizes critical thinking.  amazing.